Saturday, January 22, 2011

I think I may be a control freak!

I am currently reading this book my mom got herself one copy and me one. Its all about letting go to whatever spiritual power you believe in and letting them take your burdens. For me that is hard to do. I feel like such a control freak after reading some of it. I didnt even think I was one. I feel like I have felt like a burden to those around me for years to where I have just gotten used to feeling this way, and its hard to let anyone, let alone God to take over all of my burdens. With food, with my health, with my life. Im not a super religious person but in the book it talks about so many people keep God seperate from their lives and if they just let that power take over what we cannot control(even though we believe we can control things) then things would change for the better. Its interesting, hope Im not butchering it by trying to explain it but its kind of opened my eyes to things I havent heard or tried before. Not saying I want to be one of those people who push their beliefs on others or spout out religious things all the time but I want to be able to let go.

My pain last night was so horrible. from my toes to my butt my left leg was hurting. Then my lower back for some reason has just been really touchy. So I had some of my lidocane patches that I never tried for this specific pain so I tried them, still didnt do that much for me. Then.... I started feeling like my heart was palpitating oddly so I went online to see what the deal was, it had only been on for like 1/2-1hr. Of course they list every side effect in the book just like any other drug so they cover their asses, so that didnt help. But then I found customer reviews of people for the most part it was how it either worked or didnt then I found one that said they had the heart racing thing and took it off and 20min later felt better. So I took it off. Of course I still had horrible pain so I didnt know what I was supposed to do. Didnt get to sleep until late, then woke up early as usual. Man I am exhausted....

So much to do and learn and change in so little time...  I need to let go.....

2 comments:

Minnie S. Lee said...

hi there, I just saw your comment on my post - thank you :)

I used to be about 15-20 pounds heavier than where I am now - without getting into all the details, the first step to healthy eating is to cut out sugar and processed foods. Focus on fresh vegetables, fruits high in antioxidants (pomegranate seeds, blueberries, blackberries, etc), fish rich in Omega 3-s (salmon), almonds, flax seeds, etc... there are many websites out there that lists food that is good for inflammation (google "anti-inflammatory diet" and the like)...

I also eat smaller meals but 5-6x a day instead of 2-3 big meals, it actually helps your metabolism (by not having spikes in blood sugar levels)... etc etc.

grains that help have been, for me, quinoa, bulgur, instead of rice, potatoes, wheat bread, etc...

i always say, eat clean - minimize processing, cooking...

hope this helps.

Blue Lou said...

Thats pretty darn close to the one I started following this month. Im glad Im on the right track then! I have heard of Quinoa but never used it... Ill have to check it out. In a lot of Paleo recipes I have seen it calls for that.

Thank you!